Lose yourself to find yourself. A travelogue of our 6 month journey through India.
I was woken up last night just after midnight by the bloke across from us turning on his lights. There are large open air vent blocks in the walls so it was as if he had turned the lights on in our room too. I didn’t get back to sleep thereafter and lots more thoughts arose in my mind till we got up at dawn. I feel I am lacking focus here and need to go inward more. I’ve done far too much chatting and not enough discipline. It feels a bit like I am living in a shopping mall coffee shop. Today I am concentrating on chanting Ram Nam and not putting my attention outward. It felt useful to do this during my first Seva shift this morning. Fortunately I was on duty by myself for much of it, which made it easier to withdraw and go within. I still have not learnt where the line is between being friendly and being pointless. Most of the conversations I engaged in yesterday where all just opinions being bandied back and forth to no end whatsoever. I think most of us talk ourselves in circles. So, today – more focus, more discipline, less talky talky.