Lose yourself to find yourself. A travelogue of our 6 month journey through India.
Rajan said that I have not been practicing enough because I could not keep up with his supersonic playing this morning. I have been practicing upwards of 7 hours every day! I think he has high expectations of me. He told me that his students generally take a year to play as I am doing after 1 week. That’s nice to hear, but I am keen to balance effort with enjoyment. Far too often I fall into the trap of mega effort and my enjoyment disappears. Also I’d like to participate in the Ashram schedule as much as possible too. From what I can see Rajan pushes his daughters hard to excel in singing and dance... Mind you, they have a cabinet filled with trophies, and Srilaya can sing phenomenonally well so there is something to be said for pushing on through if you want to go down that route. But again, I don’t want to get caught in the “success” trap. My primary aim is to enjoy the harmonium and be able to play bhajans at home on it for Nix and I to maintain our practice. I’m not interested in winning competitions or being the best in the world. So, I won’t take his severity personally, and will simply keep on keeping on doing the best I can ;) My harmonium is currently in Mangalore for repair, so practice is going to be challenging for a while. I’ve arranged to cycle down to Rajan’s house for a couple of extra hours practice a day whilst my harmonium is out of action. It will probably do me good to ease up on the intensity for a few days....